The Brightest Rainy Day

I really hope this week doesn't set the precedent for the rest of the year, because if it is then I think I'll throw in the towel now. There's a lot of drama going on, I guess it's typical for the start of the school year. A friend was apparently in trouble emotionally, but judging by her smiles and laughter she seems okay. Now I'm the one ultimately left out in the rain. Throughout all of this I am succeeding in dragging down some of the people I care about the most, all for an uncertain outcome. Even if things work out, there's no way to know its sustainable. I sense things aren't. 

What's kind of funny is that I thought I was being helpful to my friends. However, now she's worried about me, which defeats the point of what I've been trying to do. So go figure. Sometimes, I swear I say white but things turn black.

When I started writing this post, it was raining even though it is sunny. It reflects the way things are right now. Things appear bright, but look closer and it's pouring. 

The good thing about today is that the only class I have left is War, which is really fun. That and after school we are painting sets. So at least the sun will come out at the end of this rainy day. Or it will begin to storm. There's no way to know.

Misty

Today was another one of those weird Singapore days in which you can see the fog and humidity for the whole day. It was a day when your hands stick together, your hair feels damp, and it's strangely hot and cold at the same time. In other words, it's a day that looks pretty but is really kind of icky.

I just took an AP Euro quiz and I'm not feeling good about it. Some of the questions were really easy, but some feel more like curveball questions. How am I supposed to remember what these people look like, or what architectural addition was added during the Renaissance? I'm not good at visual questions.

Today was one of those days in which I feel quite scattered. Things are barely holding themselves together. Just have to gaff everything back together and keep moving.

Didn't really do anything in tech today, which was a good and bad thing. It's fun to just hang out with the techies, but being productive is fun too. I signed up for sound along with like 4 other people, so I don't know how much I'll actually do. I did a fair amount for the musical last year so hopefully I can pretend to be in charge and all that.

I'm Silly

You know, I've lived in Singapore for over a year...

And yet I still don't bother to check the websites of classes I try and attend, which results in me showing up to discover there's no class. Naturally, this happened to me today trying to go to the adult class at Singapore Dance Theatre. They have a show going on this week- no classes. I was all dressed up and ready to go, and arrived early. However, the place was totally silent. The doors were still open so I went up to find a lovely little timetable with "NO CLASS" beside all of today's classes. Then my mother wouldn't pick up her phone... I was walking around in a pastel green dress, tights, and hair in a bun for a while. Got quite a few stares.

Also, I am losing my ability to recognise my mother in public. There was a white woman with blonde hair walking on the opposite side of the street I was standing on, and I thought she was my mother. So, I started trying to get her attention. Not only did I fail, but I realised later that the lady on the street really didn't look like my mother at all except for her hair colour. Oh well.

Upon getting home after having frozen yogurt out, I tried to take a shower. Here in Singapore, I have to turn on my hot water heater for at least 15 minutes before I have enough hot water to do so. Unfortunately for me, that meant I got blasted with cold water. Lovely. So as I sit here typing this, my hair is dripping cold water on me.

It was a professional techie's last day today, and I only saw him briefly. So I am kind of sad about that. Regardless, today was a nice day overall.

I don't feel like putting up a quote. Have a picture of Totoro. Totoro makes me happy.

The Joys of Sophomore Chemistry

Well, I've got a bit of time in between doing small sections of a worksheet I am fairly confident I am doing correctly, so I might as well blog. I've been pretty busy keeping other blogs updated and somehow this one has fallen by the wayside. It's really unfortunate, considering how long this blog has actually been running.

This isn't the first time I have blogged in class, and I always feel a bit bad about it. Yet, the classes in which I blog are generally hopelessly dull or highly simplistic. Sophomore chemistry is really quite simple so far- hopefully it will be interesting.

My school started off this morning with the annual Service Assembly, which wasn't interesting the first time I heard it last year and wasn't interesting this year. Luckily I was standing around with the other techies so I didn't fall asleep. Strangely enough, a bunch of us turned up to school in tech blacks (including me). Considering we weren't working a show, it was simply amusing.

One of the professional techies, Leo, is leaving at the end of the week. He's not a techie by nature- rather, he's an actor. Apparently he's going to get his PhD or something like that. Everyone is quite sad to see Leo go. During "Once on This Island" he gelled (coloured) Nick and my work-light in the booth pink! He's got quite a good sense of humor.

My Finance teacher is out today so overall this day hasn't been and won't be very productive.  I have Chinese today, which is good I guess. I don't practice enough to retain the information very well, which is unfortunate. At least I'm trying.

Tomorrow I have an English presentation, and I'm already really nervous. At this point, I can't even say the author's name!

Six Months in High Heels

As of today, Nick and I have been dating for six months. Which is like 182 days or something crazy like that. But it doesn't really matter how long it's been. We're happy today, we were yesterday, and we will be tomorrow. And that's what matters.


Except that I was brilliant and decided to wear my heels out today. The ones that I put pictures up on this blog a while back. All I can say at this point is ouch. That was kind of stupid. I've now got a fair number of blisters. The thing is, as a dancer I am pretty immune to my feet hurting. So, I don't notice how bad things are until I take off my shoes and go, Well, that will take three weeks to heal.

At least I looked pretty. Or at least, that's what I'd like to believe.


In other news and such today, I did no homework. So now I'm feeling a bit guilty, which I suppose is to be expected. At least I had done more work than I had to before to balance it all out. Tomorrow is a day off (thank goodness) so I can catch up then.

My dad brought home Dulce de Leche. It's delicious. I want to move to South America and eat it every day. But then I'd probably get very chubby.

This was random.


Here, have a song in German that I really like.

Passing Days

It seems like I've been in school for a few weeks or months, at least. Not in the volume of work I'm getting (no papers or tests yet), but in how everything seems to just work this year. I'm not searching for friends or getting lost anymore. It feels like I never left school.

I can't say I feel like a Junior yet. Suppose the pressure about SATs and generally getting good marks just hasn't settled in yet or something. Instead, I'm quite glad I have 2 free blocks this first semester. While it probably makes me more social that I should be, it's also nice to just be able to hang out.


Today in free, my friend Flick was telling us about psychology-type stuff. According to her and her unknown sources, there is no such thing as love at first sight. However, there is lust at first sight. I found that interesting.


Oh well. It's really late and I was just wanted to post something before I went to bed. Tomorrow I'm babysitting for the first time in a while, but it's not really in the evening so I can't do my homework during it. That and I have Chinese class- basically, a very tiring day.

At least I finished my annoying math homework this evening :)

Quote of the Day:

"Curiosity is the lust of the mind" -Thomas Hobbes

Day 3

Oh my goodness, I'm back in school.

Yay?

I meant to post at lunch on the first day of school like I did last year, but I realised there was really no purpose at all. Last year I was sitting on the third floor anxiously poking my food, wondering what on earth I was doing, why it was so hot, and if there was any way I could get out of uniform. I was surrounded by a small group of girls who I barely knew, and was avoiding my peer buddy person. This year, I was sitting on the fourth floor with a relatively large group of friends sitting around and being happy. It was a really nice time seeing everyone again.

Things have really changed since last year. I could have never dreamed of spending so much time in the tech office to the point I wonder if I should move in. I could have never imagined the people I'd meet, the things I'd do, or the places I would go (Japan last year yippee!). So it's strange now to look back at the student I was then and compare myself to who I am now.

I've got a lot of work coming at me this year. I'm in AP Euro and AP Psych, though I'm trying to change Psych to something else. Everything else is basically a slack course and the Finance teacher scares the daylights out of me, but that's okay.

This year is going to be an adventure.

"Contigo, mi vida, quiero vivir la vida" ~Shakira

A Thought List

Well, I should be going to bed because tomorrow is my first day of school. But, instead I'm going to make a random thought list. Because that's logical, of course.

1. Nothing in the world compares to a little respect.
            It's not that hard. Just thanking someone when they hand you something is lovely.

2. There's no such thing as perfection.
            There's no perfect school timetable, teacher, friend, person, activity or event. Everything                             has flaws, and it takes a while to accept them.

3. Modesty has never hurt anyone. Being arrogant hurts everyone.

4. Even when you think you know everything, there's still more to learn.
             I think that's something all high schoolers need to remember. Scratch that- everyone needs to remember that. Including myself.

5. Everyone has something to contribute.

6. There are few things worse than hatred due to ignorance.
           If everyone took the time learn about other people, cultures, religion, etc, when we'd all be a lot better off.

7. Change takes time, patience and energy.

8. Being a better person takes time, motivation, energy, and a will to help others.
          That's something I'm going to be doing this coming school year. Either that, or I'm going to go ultimate nerd. We'll see.

A New Start is Approaching

Wow, these past couple of days have been really eventful, and really tiring too.

Open House was yesterday, so I got to meet all my new teachers. Except that my schedule is messed up. As in, I'm missing a class, have double English in one semester, and too many frees. So it's quite strange and will be changed, which means I'm going to lose some of the teachers I've met. It's not really a problem because teachers don't really matter right away in the school year. Because I'm sorry but, all teachers say the same thing. They all want the same thing: for their students to do their best and go to them for help if they need it. So ultimately meeting teachers on that first day does not matter in the slightest.

Hopefully I'm going to be able to keep this blog going this school year. Things have the potential to get very busy. I'm an upperclassman, which is super strange. When I was little I always wanted to be sixteen and in high school. I don't think I could have ever imagined being a teenager to be the way it actually is. Yes, there is more independence and friends and potential to do fun things. But there's also responsibility and life isn't a fairy tale.

Happy Birthday Singapore!

For those of you who don't know, today is Singapore's 47th birthday. Otherwise known as National Day. It's pretty cool that today on Twitter, loads of things regarding Singapore are trending. It's also cool that so many stores were open (on the 4th of July, everything is closed!). 

Today I did terribly non-National Day-ish things. I had brunch at the Five and Dime restaurant down the street, which was pretty good. It's not cheap, but I've never had a bad dish there. Then after hanging around at home for a while my family and I went to Giant. Giant is like a Walmart and a Cosco... kind of. It doesn't have as many bulk items as Cosco, but it's got everything under the sun like Walmart. So, we picked up a bunch of stuff such as cork boards for my room (still have to put them up- I'll take a picture eventually). The amount and diversity of stuff sold there is kind of shocking to me. There's just nothing quite like that in the States. 

After Giant, we went out for an early dinner at ION before seeing The Dark Knight Rises. 

And I feel like I've said this before, but seriously: the ending to that movie is the perfect set up for a Titans movie! Or at least a Robin movie. 

So now I'm home and I have a headache since we saw it in IMAX. IMAX is cool, but it never fails to make me feel ill. Oh well. 

Go to a Concert For Free (Kinda)

Sorry it's been a while, I've been pretty busy lately. You know, doing important things like ballet class and SAT prep. Or sitting and watching videos on YouTube. Same difference.

Last night's ballet class was pretty different- mostly because there was a Megadeth concert going on at Fort Canning. I have no idea who their opening act was, but there was a lot of screaming and such. It was kind of cool to be able to see them, but it was also mega annoying for them to be playing when I was trying to do ballet. Heavy metal and classical ballet just don't go together, if you know what I mean. I'm not very familiar with their music, but I really liked the guitar solos in it. My poor ballet teacher ended up turning the ballet music up really loud and closing the main door (the source of breezes/fresh air) to the studio, so it was really hot. 

So yes, if you want to see a metal concert when you really don't want to, sign up for adult ballet at Fort Canning and try your luck!

Though, Snow Patrol was performing on Monday. Wish I danced on Mondays now... 

Regarding Snow Patrol, I absolutely love this song by them:

Anyways, today I had Chinese class again. We normally have class on Thursdays, but tomorrow is National Day and neither of us really wanted to have class then. Mostly me.

Blacklists and New Shoes

I'm too lazy to complain more about Snow City, so here's my vlog on it. Not impressed in the slightest.


Other than that, I had a pretty good day today. Didn't do much this morning and got to talk to Nick a bit. I can't wait until he comes back to Singapore! Then went out shopping with my mom and got some new sandals.

In addition, I started re-reading A World Lit Only by Fire, which was a book I had to read over the summer for AP Euro. The reason I started re-reading it is because I felt like I was only looking for information to fill out the worksheet, not to actually read it. Strangely enough, the book is a lot less boring when read for fun. It's pretty interesting, really.

I think this is an interesting point. When people read to fill out worksheets, they are only looking for that information 75% of the time. The other stuff is just boring. But when people read for fun, they absorb a lot more. They also don't count pages until the thing is over.

Hair Dressers

I hate the hair dressers.
I hate people touching my hair.
I hate scissors anywhere near my hair.

Oh, but I love the smell of the shampoo they use. Seriously, what is that stuff? I'd buy a bottle.

Hair dressers in Singapore are different than they are in the USA. They do scalp massages, which are a strange combination of nice-feeling and absolute torture. They also give you ginger tea, which is nice.

I hate getting my hair cut. I love having long hair, and the sound of scissors cutting my hair never fails to irk me. The whole time I'm in that weird, round chair I'm panicking because I don't know how much the guy is cutting off. That being said, I think I got about 7 cm of hair cut of today, which I need because it was all dead at the ends anyways. But seriously, nothing is more terrifying to me beauty-wise.

Of course, in the grand scheme of things I'm quite aware that getting my hair cut is minor. However, I'm female, which therefore means I am strangely preoccupied with my looks over practical things.

I'll put pictures up of my hair/hair style later (I got it styled for a shoot), which means today will most likely be a double post. Yay~

Dance Pet Peeves

Okay, so I went to ballet class yesterday as usual. And I know I'm in an adult ballet class so standards are different, but seriously, some of these things are really weird.

Why on earth is there:

1. Always some girl in a pink leotard with a pink skirt? You look like a little kid.
2. That really amazing flexible dancer?
3. The dancer who holds herself beautifully but always goes the wrong way?
4. That weird guy who's way too friendly, thinks he's the best dancer in the room, and jokes/hits on other dancers?
4.5- Then towards the end of class, he takes of his ballet shoes (eww), and ends up sitting on the floor (rude)?!
5. That woman who's probably a professional dancer.
6. Someone with their hair in a ponytail, but their hair is too long for it and it whips them in the face?

Just saying, all of these have occurred at least twice since I've been attending this class (and yesterday was my 3rd class). It's really strange. I mean, I have nothing against the class or the people in it (but maybe that weird guy), but I just don't get it.

I guess I'm the "girl who looks too young to be there"...